I am Darius' tired old shoes...
What a weekend...I drank it up pretty good two days in a row...not planned...and not proud of it... I feel like doo doo now...yuck. No more consecutive partying for me. All I've been doing over the past few weeks is drink and eat, and not exercise....that's gonna come back to bite me real bad. I feel the weight coming on already. But the parties were good....I saw a lot of people i hadn't seen in a while and even met some really cool new people. Networked a lil even, danced a lil even, and had a lot of fun. Also took care of the fam this weekend, settling some future issues concering pop. We cannot leave him all alone just yet, because I'm scared he's gonna try to do something more than he should be and that will turn out to be quite bad. It's been stressin me out a lot and my sister, I think, feels that i have a lot on my mind though I don't say it. I'm just scared...cuz mom has to go back to work and we're trying to set up a schedule so that someone is always with him.
Pop asked me this morning if I knew how to whistle...and I do...and he doesn't....anymore. So I tried to teach him...I thought I was gonna break down. I know it's getting repetitive, but it's hard to see your dad in that type of position, really really REALLY hard. I took him and mom to go see a movie, "The Flipside," and that was cool...but I had to help him fix his pants in the bathroom...I wasn't embarassed or anything, I just realized how different life has become since August 31st. But don't get me wrong, I am so utterly grateful God has brought him back even to this stage and that i have not lost him yet. I guess I just really have been given a second chance to really not take my parents for granted, as I think so many people do a lot of the time.
I finally got a little exercise in today...played ball for about 2 hours at the park...felt so damn good...well felt so damn tiring, but I know it was good for my body... It was really cold too, so that actually helps in calorie burning. It's good too since, I'm trying to push all that damn alcohol out of my system.
So all in all it was a quite productive, fun, and intriguing weekend...but not as restful as I had hoped. Well I can take my rest during the week, I just gotta use a little more wisdom. So here's to a productive yet restful week. Pass on the multiple outtings and just take that time do the things I wanted @ the apt. Cleaning, organizing, and just chillin...
I hope to start my quit smoking program sometime this week. It's been hitting me and I don't enjoy the cigs as much as I feel I NEED it. But it's for a greater good...
"Some times the best road isn't the easiest road....take your path wisely."
What a weekend...I drank it up pretty good two days in a row...not planned...and not proud of it... I feel like doo doo now...yuck. No more consecutive partying for me. All I've been doing over the past few weeks is drink and eat, and not exercise....that's gonna come back to bite me real bad. I feel the weight coming on already. But the parties were good....I saw a lot of people i hadn't seen in a while and even met some really cool new people. Networked a lil even, danced a lil even, and had a lot of fun. Also took care of the fam this weekend, settling some future issues concering pop. We cannot leave him all alone just yet, because I'm scared he's gonna try to do something more than he should be and that will turn out to be quite bad. It's been stressin me out a lot and my sister, I think, feels that i have a lot on my mind though I don't say it. I'm just scared...cuz mom has to go back to work and we're trying to set up a schedule so that someone is always with him.
Pop asked me this morning if I knew how to whistle...and I do...and he doesn't....anymore. So I tried to teach him...I thought I was gonna break down. I know it's getting repetitive, but it's hard to see your dad in that type of position, really really REALLY hard. I took him and mom to go see a movie, "The Flipside," and that was cool...but I had to help him fix his pants in the bathroom...I wasn't embarassed or anything, I just realized how different life has become since August 31st. But don't get me wrong, I am so utterly grateful God has brought him back even to this stage and that i have not lost him yet. I guess I just really have been given a second chance to really not take my parents for granted, as I think so many people do a lot of the time.
I finally got a little exercise in today...played ball for about 2 hours at the park...felt so damn good...well felt so damn tiring, but I know it was good for my body... It was really cold too, so that actually helps in calorie burning. It's good too since, I'm trying to push all that damn alcohol out of my system.
So all in all it was a quite productive, fun, and intriguing weekend...but not as restful as I had hoped. Well I can take my rest during the week, I just gotta use a little more wisdom. So here's to a productive yet restful week. Pass on the multiple outtings and just take that time do the things I wanted @ the apt. Cleaning, organizing, and just chillin...
I hope to start my quit smoking program sometime this week. It's been hitting me and I don't enjoy the cigs as much as I feel I NEED it. But it's for a greater good...
"Some times the best road isn't the easiest road....take your path wisely."
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